This Hurts

the words dont sound right in my head
or in my fingertips
i think i said thank you
i should have said leave

ill probably eat my way into forgetting you
because drinking only makes
it easier to remember
and because
food fills voids
i am
full of incompleteness

when i realize nothing helps the hurt
especially your empty words
of
“do you want to talk about this”
i will run away from the truth
i always do
no, no i dont want to talk
because the words dont feel right in my throat
or in my stomach

the hurt remains as i grow fatter
and weaker
and sadder and sleepier
all these things because
i never learned how to properly say goodbye

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