No Apologies

im sorry that i
dont fit into that curtain draped
lights shining on me in the perfect angle
sort of person that im sure you
envisioned
idealized
memorized until you could replace me with her
so that
even when you whisper my name it sounds different

im sorry that i dont answer your latest
pleading drunken messages
choosing instead to wrap myself in my own
artificial worth instead of something human

im sorry that i dont give you direct answers or
pleasing smiles or whatever it is in the moment that you
want

but really
im not that sorry for being
who i am
instead of who you think i am

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